I am pretty sure I have changed....

My dear family..... so much has happened this week. I don't know where to begin. After I read some of the letters that I got last Monday I went home so terribly sad. Never in my life have I ever felt so terribly sick. Physically and mentally. I asked the elders in our district if they could give me a blessing. The news that  I received really hurt.  Well it looks like God works in mysterious ways. So I was kind of a mess for Monday and Tuesday this week. But I have one GRAND TESTIMONY of the inspiration of companions. My dear sweet companion had received news like mine but when she was in the MTC. Wednesday I was still a big mess. And I finally got up the courage to ask her how she was handling things. She told me good. But that she was only handling it through the atonement of Jesus Christ. My dear sweet family.... I KNOW THAT CHRIST LIVES. Wednesday I prayed harder than I ever had in my life, for guidance, for comfort, I needed something that would help me go on because I couldn't do it. And never in my life have I felt such an amazing feeling of comfort. I needed to  have this trial, and its a blessing.  And I need to do the will of the lord here in Paraguay. I'm so happy, I can't express how amazing it is to be here doing something bigger than me..The lord is mindful of every single one of his children. I feel that he was especially mindful of me this week. So that you guys know. I'm fine. I'm happy. And I know that this is the true church. Immediately after I received this comfort Wednesday we saw miracles in our area. HUGE MIRACLES. There will be two baptisms on the 15th, and a wedding.  We are finally starting to see the miracles the only sad part is that cambios are in one week and that Hermana Hidalgo and I will not be able to see the baptism together after all of the hard work that we have done. But it was good. Friday we did divisions with the sister leaders I went to another area with the sister Cortez, my trainer, and this same night our district leader called us and told us that we were going to be going to clean the temple Monday. All week long i had been praying that i would have the chance to go to the temple again so that I could write down names and feel the spirit that is only in the temple. When we changed into white I was assigned to clean the sealing room. The moment I walked into that small room I was reminded of the plan of salvation. This work is so much bigger than just baptizing people. We are so much closer to the time when Jesus Christ comes again. I could feel it! And when I was cleaning the sealing room I felt the spirit super strong.  I was comforted in the temple. I never thought that I would have to face this trial in the mission but my dear family I am so amazingly OK with it. I don't feel anger, or sadness, or the desire to come home. And you know what, the Tiffany that I was before the mission, would have felt these things. I am not the same person I was before I came to the mission and I don't ever want to go back. So just know that I'm so good. I love you all so so so much. And that my prayers are with you, but my heart is here in Paraguay. Because when you take care of the Lords, The lord takes care of yours.

I love you all so so so much,

Hermana Ross